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[Sunday
August 28th, 2005
9:41pm] |
mmmhm. i have a new journal.
it is called. holdonlovee.
find and add maybe. you know.
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[Thursday
August 18th, 2005
11:28am] |
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i wrote a myspace blog the other day about all the things that i will miss when i leave on saturday, the day after tomorrow. i've said my goodbyes. so here's my fuck yous.
i would like to give a big fuck you to all my ex-boyfriends/boy...things of the past year, starting in chronological order, beginning exactly one year ago in august.
boy one: fuck you for taking a part of me that i can never get back. fuck you for looking at me and seeing nothing more than a vagina and a pair of tits on legs. fuck you for not being everything i hoped you could be. fuck you for being so sleazy, so weak.
boy two: fuck you for making me like you and making me worry about you. fuck you for telling me to come down and hang out with you at lunch and standing me up. fuck you for being so typical.
boy three: fuck you for not being who i thought you were. fuck you for making me think you are different. fuck you for the silence that was much worse than you just telling me that you didn't want to be with me. and thanks for nailing and bailing.
boy four: i don't have much against you. but fuck you for breaking up with me. even though i probably deserved it. still. fuck you.
Fuck all of you boys who talk about how hurt you are and how hard your life is while you go around hurting other people. Fuck all of you who act like creepy assholes when girls are drunk, who buy them alchohol and get angry when you don't get pussy. Fuck all of you for being so goddamn typical.
Fuck you. All the girls who change friends like they change their hair color, who choose their friends by who has the cutest pair of ballet flats or who has the cutest scene hair. Seriously. Fuck you. Both your faces are ugly.
..If you think I'm talking about you, I probably am.
This place is bad for me. It makes me drink too much and get sucked into stupid things that I never wanted to be sucked into. I guess that it's sad that I'm leaving in some ways. I do like some people. But the truth is that I hate most people here, for what they have become, for jumping on every bandwagon that comes along and thinking they are so original, so unique, so amazingly cool. So, I'm leaving and I'll look back from time to time. I'm not going to use this journal anymore. I'll make a new one eventually and if I like you, I'll add you.
So. Um. Bye.
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[Saturday
July 2nd, 2005
11:52pm] |
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i have never felt this way about anyone in my entire life and thinking that i will have to leave him in a month physically hurts me.
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[Thursday
June 23rd, 2005
1:06pm] |
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ugh. i fucking hate you.
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[Monday
June 6th, 2005
5:36pm] |
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[Wednesday
April 27th, 2005
6:08pm] |
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